(L)insanity or Love insanity

You said I speak flowery
But behind these words is the painful reality
That you can never be with me
Waiting in vain is insanity

In this world that is extremely cold and lonely
Salvation is your memory
That I will keep eternally
Such severe misery and agony

To be with you is ecstasy
But waking up from the fantasy
Is the realization that he owns you already
Should I just let you be?

How could I let such beauty
Just leave me in exchange to complacency?
I resort to poetry
To pacify the pain in me

You are all I see
Your flaws and imperfections are your beauty
Your smile is my eternity
I stay in it in perpetuity

Fragmented State of Being

This is my attempt again to write a poem. According to some friends of mine in UP, writing a poem with no meter, rhyme, rhythm and other basic elements that a poem should contain is not a problem. Poem writing with the conventional elements isn't a big deal anymore.

This is for you. Because I miss you.

I miss you so hard it hurts

It makes me sick, it makes me rhyme

You are part of my every breath 

Every heave of sigh 

You are there every second I close my eyes.

It's you who I think of always

Does the absence make the heart grow fonder? 

Sure it does

My desire to see you each day gets stronger

For how long I'll wait? I don't know.

Destiny, according to Murakami, is something we look back at afterwards 

It's not something to be known in advance

Therefore, destiny is somewhat planned

It is us who hold our destiny 

We are our destiny.

IMY

Hey blog! I miss you. Sorry I can't just write anything I want so I'll resort to my journal. I have a lot in mind that I want to write and be read but I need to do some self-censorship.

I miss writing. I love writing despite me not being good at it.

Justice No. 5

I can't believe this is happening. It's like a dream. Being able to speak to her again. My heart is beating faster.

She replied to my private messages in facebook. What steps should I do next?

I can't afford to lose her again. This is my chance to reconnect to her. I'm somewhat inspired with the knowledge that I regained my connection to her despite what's happening to me for the past, e.g. bad relationship with people very close to me.

I'm stuck and dumbfounded right now. I'm lost for words. I'm nervous. I'm overthinking again, I think. This is what happens to me when I'm heightened by emotions. I'm scared to lose her. I can cry right now.

I finally found Justice after a long search. She's taken already. I know. But I don't care.

She changed her name in a manner that you wouldn't find her. Good thing Gela was added by her in facebook and Gela is an accomplice.

I really got inspired after knowing this.

I'm planning my next steps and I'm excited to see her.