Blog no. 1: On moving on and letting go

I always think of this girl in high school. We started out as not-so-cool friends. I hated her actually because she thinks a lot of the boys in class likes her. When it was nearing graduation time, I felt I like her too. I confessed to her through text that I like her. In 2006, we graduated but we still got in touch with one another through mobile texting. It was our first year in college. I entered UP Los Baños while she stayed in her province in Cardona and studied in URS Morong. I'm not quite sure now if that's the school she's gone to.

Now, it's 4 or 5 years since we last saw each other. The last time I heard from her is that she has this boyfriend who grips her by the neck. I still think of her even though I like someone else now. We told each other "I love you" but it never happened. It never became us. I don't really know what happened between the two of us. I long for her. I want to talk to her again. I want to know what she's up to, if she graduated already and if she's happy with her life. I want a one last long talk with her and tell her everything. I think I still love her and I cannot move on. I cannot love another person because of her.

I really hope we bump into each other again soon.