Secret revealed and Pain

I don't know how to face the new day. I'm still tied from the past. Past memories I want to repress or better yet, permanently delete.

Today, I told my batchmates in Samaskom the darkest secret I have. This dark secret is the reason why I hate my childhood, hate the place where I live in, and hate my life.

I just want to be reincarnated or something. I didn't like how my fate went. I know however dark my past is, it won't define me as a person but it still affects me.

I cried hard again today. I  just want to let it out. I don't know if people around me really care, but I don't care. I don't mind. This does not happen to me that often and when it does happen, my mind becomes shrouded with negativities.

I can't think clearly. I can't even start with the things I have to do.

I don't know what to think. It matters to me how people will think about me after knowing my dark past.