This is an entry I submitted for UP Writers' Club Forbidden Love Letter writing contest. Unfortunately, I did not win. But it's okay. I did not expect to win either way. And I'm just an amateur writer so I don't expect much. Anyway, the experience of joining a writing contest heightens my adrenaline. I am looking forward to discovering and joining more writing contests even if I don't win on them.
January 30, 2013
Dear Baby Girl,
I don’t know if I can take this any longer but I can’t imagine you
living a life with him. We exist in this make-believe world we ourselves
created. It’s my fault I was a few years late and when I found you,
you’re in the arms of another man already. But you gave me that chance
to wait and to hold on until you guys fall out of love. I clung to that
hope. I’m not happy with the idea of being the other man but my love for
you makes me irrational that I accepted that fact. Our secret dates
when I visit you at home and pretend to be your best friend are the best
moments in my life. Time literally freezes. Every minute spent with you
is an eternity for me. Those tiny hands of yours that I want to hold
close to me and those sweet lips I want to kiss. Only I can’t because
you are still with him. How I wish I could turn back time, in high
school where I could have been more confident, more determined, more
persistent in courting you. I could have exerted more effort. I
shouldn’t have let distance obstruct my way in winning your heart.
I couldn’t be completely happy with the situation we are in right now,
Baby Girl. I honestly feel that the kind of love I receive from you is
just fragments, is just leftovers of the whole love I could have
received if we are together and if we are not living in the world of
lies. But we chose this. We decided to take this path together that
night when I was looking straight into your eyes and was penetrating
your soul. When you said “yes, let’s to do this”, you lighten my world
even though we both know that this decision can hurt other people. But
what can I do? You’re the only one who made me feel this way. You’re the
only one who thought I am a great person, that I am more than I think I
am. You were there when all else doubted what I can do. You made me
feel loved.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to give you up. My whole world will
collapse for sure. I don’t know if I can make it through this life
without you. And this is the very reason why I’m writing you right now.
Please come to my arms and leave him. I know you’ve been together for
years now but I’m willing to match those years with my unconditional
love for you. I cannot be contented with a half-hearted love. I want to
feel your whole, pure, sole love. I want to be able to touch you, to
embrace you, and to kiss you without ever feeling the pang of
conscience. I don’t want to live in this lie anymore because you’re the
only thing real to me. Please leave him and choose me. I promise to give
you the love you truly deserve. I can’t wait any longer for you guys to
fall out of love because the more that you are with him, the more
you’ll feel less for me and the more you’ll doubt your love for me. That
is one painful thing I can’t bear.
I’ll be waiting for your response by any means. Whatever decision you
make Baby Girl, please don’t forget that I love you. I love you with all
my heart, with all my soul, with all of me.
The one who loves you deservingly,
T
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