Rants not Deserving

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How d'ya like my new background? Hypnic jerk seems legit with this background, doesn't it? I found it in somewhere-I-will-not-tell-you-motherfucker site.

OMWH
On my way home from school, I went too far from where I'm supposed to drop off (the Sto. Nino street). I fell asleep with my headphones and music still on because I was so fucking tired with what I am doing, i.e. thesis. When I woke up I was at Estrella (Spanish for stars) already. I checked my stuff and found them still complete. I thought, what a wasted life I have. When can I do what I want to do? I actually don't have the right to complain because as compared to the life of others, mine's far better. Here we go again with comparisons. There are two things I am trying to avoid in this moment of my life right now. The first one is comparing myself or my life to others and the second one is doing "sumbat" (note: just now, I tried googling the right English term for "sumbat" but it seems like there is no exact counterpart of that Tagalog word in English).

Define: Sumbat
The term is defined  (at least in my interpretation) as when a person find faults on you, scolds you, or blames you and tells you things that they regret doing when in fact they already did it. To concretize more, I'll give one example based on a situation I got involved in not so long ago.

One day, I misplaced my sister's money when I had it changed for many denominations (barya) and left home without telling her where I placed it. We were both in a hurry. I had a meeting to attend to at school and she also had a meeting somewhere. She texted me while I was still inside a jeep on my way to UP some harsh statements like: "Saan mo nilagay yung pera? Magaling ka talagang manira ng araw e." and "Siguraduhin mo lang na gagraduate ka ngayong sem dahil wala na kaming pampaaral sa'yo." which are out of the context because I just misplaced her money and there she goes with bringing up cobwebs of issues totally unrelated to that mistake I made. So there, I hope you get it when I say what "sumbat" means. In short, it's bringing up a lot of complains, frustrations and good things they did for you just because you did something wrong. I hate it so much when people do "sumbatan". But when I think about it, consciously and unconsciously I sometimes do the same misbehavior so I don't have the right to hate it. Do you understand where I'm coming from? Ugh.