Caption: The artificial waterfall at the lobby
Note: These are notes from my iPhone notes. I needed somewhere to write on.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
On Circumcision and Job Application
Alam mo yung nerbyos na naramdaman mo nung magpapatuli ka pa lang? Ganitong ganito yung pakiramdam habang hinihintay mo ang pagtawag sa pangalan mo ng magiinterview. Parang nagflashback yung summer ng 2002, so mga 11 years ago. Sa libreng tuli lang ako nagpatuli. Hindi ko na maalala kung pang-ilan ako noon sa pila. Basta habang papalapit nang papalapit ang numerong binibilang sa numero ko ay patindi nang patindi ang kaba ko. Para akong mababaliw sa nerbyos noon. Nadama ko ulit siya ngayon kasi hindi ko natapos ang eksamen kanina. Panirang IQ Test yan. Shet, ligwak na yata ako . Lecheng tunog ng patak ng tubig yan! Imbis na pakalmahin ako ay lalo pa yata akong pinapakaba.
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
The Types of Job I want to do
There are only three types of work I want to get involve into now that I'm a graduate:
1. To work as part of the creative team of an advertising agency. The one developing concepts and writing the script, not the one doing the graphic things and technical stuff. I heard from my sister that the job is called a copywriter and that was what she thinks the type of job I'm pertaining to.
2. To work as a writer for drama or comedy in TV. To write, to direct, and to produce a show of my own and have it aired on TV.
3. To work for the government. Before, I was hesitant to work in the government because of the type of system and the misconception that the salary is low but I learned from someone that working for the government is not that bad. Moreover, as a UP graduate, there is a strong sense of responsibility in me to serve the country and its people and one way I think I can respond to this call is to work for the government.
1. To work as part of the creative team of an advertising agency. The one developing concepts and writing the script, not the one doing the graphic things and technical stuff. I heard from my sister that the job is called a copywriter and that was what she thinks the type of job I'm pertaining to.
2. To work as a writer for drama or comedy in TV. To write, to direct, and to produce a show of my own and have it aired on TV.
3. To work for the government. Before, I was hesitant to work in the government because of the type of system and the misconception that the salary is low but I learned from someone that working for the government is not that bad. Moreover, as a UP graduate, there is a strong sense of responsibility in me to serve the country and its people and one way I think I can respond to this call is to work for the government.
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Back-to-Back-to-Back
I can't be lucky with love.
It always goes this way:
Either I like a person but that person doesn't like me or a person likes me but I don't like that person.
I think it is seldom where one person likes another person, and that another person like the one person back.
I guess everyone is in an endless search to find that other pair. That pair who they will love and will love them back.
It always goes this way:
Either I like a person but that person doesn't like me or a person likes me but I don't like that person.
I think it is seldom where one person likes another person, and that another person like the one person back.
I guess everyone is in an endless search to find that other pair. That pair who they will love and will love them back.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Teromantico's Love Advice Episode 2
Yesternight, on my way to Katipunan from UP, my thesis partner told me that
I'm choosy with girls. She said that someone has an interest in me and I'm the
one who's turning her down. She was pertaining to her friend whom I met through
her as well. I did not assume that that friend of her likes me because when I
last talked to her (the friend), she has a boyfriend already.
In my mind I thought, maybe I am really choosy. But more than that, I just wanted to be sure with the girl first before courting her. They say that love is a gamble. I say in a gamble, you keep your best cards and put them down later. Why take a risk and venture on something you are uncertain? I believe that it is a kind of equation. You have to be certain first before embarking on something such as a love journey for you to be successful in it and for you to avoid any type of doubt in the end. You don't want to blame yourself in the end just because you were uncertain in the beginning, do you?
In my mind I thought, maybe I am really choosy. But more than that, I just wanted to be sure with the girl first before courting her. They say that love is a gamble. I say in a gamble, you keep your best cards and put them down later. Why take a risk and venture on something you are uncertain? I believe that it is a kind of equation. You have to be certain first before embarking on something such as a love journey for you to be successful in it and for you to avoid any type of doubt in the end. You don't want to blame yourself in the end just because you were uncertain in the beginning, do you?
Rants not Deserving
New BG
How d'ya like my new background? Hypnic jerk seems legit with this background, doesn't it? I found it in somewhere-I-will-not-tell-you-motherfucker site.
OMWH
On my way home from school, I went too far from where I'm supposed to drop off (the Sto. Nino street). I fell asleep with my headphones and music still on because I was so fucking tired with what I am doing, i.e. thesis. When I woke up I was at Estrella (Spanish for stars) already. I checked my stuff and found them still complete. I thought, what a wasted life I have. When can I do what I want to do? I actually don't have the right to complain because as compared to the life of others, mine's far better. Here we go again with comparisons. There are two things I am trying to avoid in this moment of my life right now. The first one is comparing myself or my life to others and the second one is doing "sumbat" (note: just now, I tried googling the right English term for "sumbat" but it seems like there is no exact counterpart of that Tagalog word in English).
Define: Sumbat
The term is defined (at least in my interpretation) as when a person find faults on you, scolds you, or blames you and tells you things that they regret doing when in fact they already did it. To concretize more, I'll give one example based on a situation I got involved in not so long ago.
One day, I misplaced my sister's money when I had it changed for many denominations (barya) and left home without telling her where I placed it. We were both in a hurry. I had a meeting to attend to at school and she also had a meeting somewhere. She texted me while I was still inside a jeep on my way to UP some harsh statements like: "Saan mo nilagay yung pera? Magaling ka talagang manira ng araw e." and "Siguraduhin mo lang na gagraduate ka ngayong sem dahil wala na kaming pampaaral sa'yo." which are out of the context because I just misplaced her money and there she goes with bringing up cobwebs of issues totally unrelated to that mistake I made. So there, I hope you get it when I say what "sumbat" means. In short, it's bringing up a lot of complains, frustrations and good things they did for you just because you did something wrong. I hate it so much when people do "sumbatan". But when I think about it, consciously and unconsciously I sometimes do the same misbehavior so I don't have the right to hate it. Do you understand where I'm coming from? Ugh.
How d'ya like my new background? Hypnic jerk seems legit with this background, doesn't it? I found it in somewhere-I-will-not-tell-you-motherfucker site.
OMWH
On my way home from school, I went too far from where I'm supposed to drop off (the Sto. Nino street). I fell asleep with my headphones and music still on because I was so fucking tired with what I am doing, i.e. thesis. When I woke up I was at Estrella (Spanish for stars) already. I checked my stuff and found them still complete. I thought, what a wasted life I have. When can I do what I want to do? I actually don't have the right to complain because as compared to the life of others, mine's far better. Here we go again with comparisons. There are two things I am trying to avoid in this moment of my life right now. The first one is comparing myself or my life to others and the second one is doing "sumbat" (note: just now, I tried googling the right English term for "sumbat" but it seems like there is no exact counterpart of that Tagalog word in English).
Define: Sumbat
The term is defined (at least in my interpretation) as when a person find faults on you, scolds you, or blames you and tells you things that they regret doing when in fact they already did it. To concretize more, I'll give one example based on a situation I got involved in not so long ago.
One day, I misplaced my sister's money when I had it changed for many denominations (barya) and left home without telling her where I placed it. We were both in a hurry. I had a meeting to attend to at school and she also had a meeting somewhere. She texted me while I was still inside a jeep on my way to UP some harsh statements like: "Saan mo nilagay yung pera? Magaling ka talagang manira ng araw e." and "Siguraduhin mo lang na gagraduate ka ngayong sem dahil wala na kaming pampaaral sa'yo." which are out of the context because I just misplaced her money and there she goes with bringing up cobwebs of issues totally unrelated to that mistake I made. So there, I hope you get it when I say what "sumbat" means. In short, it's bringing up a lot of complains, frustrations and good things they did for you just because you did something wrong. I hate it so much when people do "sumbatan". But when I think about it, consciously and unconsciously I sometimes do the same misbehavior so I don't have the right to hate it. Do you understand where I'm coming from? Ugh.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
I joined a writing contest
This is an entry I submitted for UP Writers' Club Forbidden Love Letter writing contest. Unfortunately, I did not win. But it's okay. I did not expect to win either way. And I'm just an amateur writer so I don't expect much. Anyway, the experience of joining a writing contest heightens my adrenaline. I am looking forward to discovering and joining more writing contests even if I don't win on them.
January 30, 2013
Dear Baby Girl,
I don’t know if I can take this any longer but I can’t imagine you living a life with him. We exist in this make-believe world we ourselves created. It’s my fault I was a few years late and when I found you, you’re in the arms of another man already. But you gave me that chance to wait and to hold on until you guys fall out of love. I clung to that hope. I’m not happy with the idea of being the other man but my love for you makes me irrational that I accepted that fact. Our secret dates when I visit you at home and pretend to be your best friend are the best moments in my life. Time literally freezes. Every minute spent with you is an eternity for me. Those tiny hands of yours that I want to hold close to me and those sweet lips I want to kiss. Only I can’t because you are still with him. How I wish I could turn back time, in high school where I could have been more confident, more determined, more persistent in courting you. I could have exerted more effort. I shouldn’t have let distance obstruct my way in winning your heart.
I couldn’t be completely happy with the situation we are in right now, Baby Girl. I honestly feel that the kind of love I receive from you is just fragments, is just leftovers of the whole love I could have received if we are together and if we are not living in the world of lies. But we chose this. We decided to take this path together that night when I was looking straight into your eyes and was penetrating your soul. When you said “yes, let’s to do this”, you lighten my world even though we both know that this decision can hurt other people. But what can I do? You’re the only one who made me feel this way. You’re the only one who thought I am a great person, that I am more than I think I am. You were there when all else doubted what I can do. You made me feel loved.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to give you up. My whole world will collapse for sure. I don’t know if I can make it through this life without you. And this is the very reason why I’m writing you right now. Please come to my arms and leave him. I know you’ve been together for years now but I’m willing to match those years with my unconditional love for you. I cannot be contented with a half-hearted love. I want to feel your whole, pure, sole love. I want to be able to touch you, to embrace you, and to kiss you without ever feeling the pang of conscience. I don’t want to live in this lie anymore because you’re the only thing real to me. Please leave him and choose me. I promise to give you the love you truly deserve. I can’t wait any longer for you guys to fall out of love because the more that you are with him, the more you’ll feel less for me and the more you’ll doubt your love for me. That is one painful thing I can’t bear.
I’ll be waiting for your response by any means. Whatever decision you make Baby Girl, please don’t forget that I love you. I love you with all my heart, with all my soul, with all of me.
The one who loves you deservingly,
T
January 30, 2013
Dear Baby Girl,
I don’t know if I can take this any longer but I can’t imagine you living a life with him. We exist in this make-believe world we ourselves created. It’s my fault I was a few years late and when I found you, you’re in the arms of another man already. But you gave me that chance to wait and to hold on until you guys fall out of love. I clung to that hope. I’m not happy with the idea of being the other man but my love for you makes me irrational that I accepted that fact. Our secret dates when I visit you at home and pretend to be your best friend are the best moments in my life. Time literally freezes. Every minute spent with you is an eternity for me. Those tiny hands of yours that I want to hold close to me and those sweet lips I want to kiss. Only I can’t because you are still with him. How I wish I could turn back time, in high school where I could have been more confident, more determined, more persistent in courting you. I could have exerted more effort. I shouldn’t have let distance obstruct my way in winning your heart.
I couldn’t be completely happy with the situation we are in right now, Baby Girl. I honestly feel that the kind of love I receive from you is just fragments, is just leftovers of the whole love I could have received if we are together and if we are not living in the world of lies. But we chose this. We decided to take this path together that night when I was looking straight into your eyes and was penetrating your soul. When you said “yes, let’s to do this”, you lighten my world even though we both know that this decision can hurt other people. But what can I do? You’re the only one who made me feel this way. You’re the only one who thought I am a great person, that I am more than I think I am. You were there when all else doubted what I can do. You made me feel loved.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to give you up. My whole world will collapse for sure. I don’t know if I can make it through this life without you. And this is the very reason why I’m writing you right now. Please come to my arms and leave him. I know you’ve been together for years now but I’m willing to match those years with my unconditional love for you. I cannot be contented with a half-hearted love. I want to feel your whole, pure, sole love. I want to be able to touch you, to embrace you, and to kiss you without ever feeling the pang of conscience. I don’t want to live in this lie anymore because you’re the only thing real to me. Please leave him and choose me. I promise to give you the love you truly deserve. I can’t wait any longer for you guys to fall out of love because the more that you are with him, the more you’ll feel less for me and the more you’ll doubt your love for me. That is one painful thing I can’t bear.
I’ll be waiting for your response by any means. Whatever decision you make Baby Girl, please don’t forget that I love you. I love you with all my heart, with all my soul, with all of me.
The one who loves you deservingly,
T
Pre-valentine Kabitteran
Habang pauwi ako kanina pagkatapos ihatid sa Marikina ang thesis partner kong si Mia, may na-ispatan akong isang babae at isang lalaki sa may Sta. Lucia. Nakaupo sila sa may plant box sa tapat ng MMDA footbridge na kulay green. Magkadikit ang kanilang mga hita habang si lalaki ay may hawak na isang pirasong rosas, nakabalot pa sa wrapper na gamit din sa plastic cover. "Ang aga naman para sa Valentine's" sabi ko sa sarili ko. "Ilang minuto pa e". Napangiti na lang ako.
Pagkalagpas ko ng kaunti, nakita ko naman ang magjowang tomboy. Sweet na sweet silang naghaharutan, magkahawak pa ng kamay. Napaisip ako. "Talamak na talamak a". Ganoon ba talaga kapag bisperas ng araw ng mga puso? S-e-g-e.
Noong mag-aabang na ako ng jeep pa-Cainta, nagutom ako bigla. Sige, kain muna akong Angel's Burger. Pagtawid ko, may magjowang heterosekswal na naman. At talagang pinuputakte ako ng mga magjojowa a. Sabi na nga ba, dapat hindi na ko lumabas ng bahay.
Hanggang sa pagsakay ko sa jeep, katapat ko mag-jowa din. Tapos pinapatugtog pa oldies na love song sa stereo ni manong.
Talaga namang patok na patok ang Valentine's ngayong taon ha.
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Teromantico's Love Advice Episode 1
New Year’s Resolution for Love
Since it is 2013 already, let’s start the year right. And yes, I’m using the third person for your consideration.
New beginnings. Fresh start. Let’s choose a love that is conflict-free especially for us guys. Seriously, whose loss is it? The ratio of male vs. female in the whole world is not even with females dominating us. Let’s make them hunt us and let’s not go crazy with the idea of falling in love. We’ll find the right person. It’s a cliché but patience is a virtue. Look at me, I’m 23 already but I still don’t have any girlfriend. As if having one is a requirement in life. If ever we get ourselves in a relationship, let’s just make the most out of it.
Let’s not wait for a love that we’re not sure of. I mean, I know it’s worth taking the risk to wait but it’s an ocean out there. Let’s catch a bigger, fatter, yummier fish. For practical reason’s sake guys! In love, we invest a lot including money, time, effort and most importantly, emotions. It’s not bad to resort to traditional courting methods but there should be an assurance that courting a certain girl will reap us rewards. It’s not practical to test the water only finding yourself drowning because you don’t have further knowledge that it’s 20 feet deep.
Start a quest. Conquer the world. Party hard and meet new people. Let’s just be careful and let’s always put our guards up. The world is full of shitty people who have the capacity to hurt us. Learn how to be open to and be closed at the same time (I know it sounds weird, right?).
Finally, don’t be afraid to love a friend. I mean, friends are the safest people to have a romantic relationship with. With friends, we have a strong foundation and we really know them. We can also use this as a strategy like befriending someone first and courting her later on. Just be ready to get friendzoned (in Ramon Bautista’s term) if it did not work.
Since it is 2013 already, let’s start the year right. And yes, I’m using the third person for your consideration.
New beginnings. Fresh start. Let’s choose a love that is conflict-free especially for us guys. Seriously, whose loss is it? The ratio of male vs. female in the whole world is not even with females dominating us. Let’s make them hunt us and let’s not go crazy with the idea of falling in love. We’ll find the right person. It’s a cliché but patience is a virtue. Look at me, I’m 23 already but I still don’t have any girlfriend. As if having one is a requirement in life. If ever we get ourselves in a relationship, let’s just make the most out of it.
Let’s not wait for a love that we’re not sure of. I mean, I know it’s worth taking the risk to wait but it’s an ocean out there. Let’s catch a bigger, fatter, yummier fish. For practical reason’s sake guys! In love, we invest a lot including money, time, effort and most importantly, emotions. It’s not bad to resort to traditional courting methods but there should be an assurance that courting a certain girl will reap us rewards. It’s not practical to test the water only finding yourself drowning because you don’t have further knowledge that it’s 20 feet deep.
Start a quest. Conquer the world. Party hard and meet new people. Let’s just be careful and let’s always put our guards up. The world is full of shitty people who have the capacity to hurt us. Learn how to be open to and be closed at the same time (I know it sounds weird, right?).
Finally, don’t be afraid to love a friend. I mean, friends are the safest people to have a romantic relationship with. With friends, we have a strong foundation and we really know them. We can also use this as a strategy like befriending someone first and courting her later on. Just be ready to get friendzoned (in Ramon Bautista’s term) if it did not work.
Books books books
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I made a list of fiction novels I think I should read. I based it from a link I saw by The Guardian. Here are them:
1984 - George Orwell
Animal Farm - George Orwell
Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
Blindness - Jose Saramago
The Book of Job, Israel (600-400 BC)
The Brothers Karamazov - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
The Castle - Franz Kafka
Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
The Divine Comedy - Dante Alighieri
Don Quixote - Miguel de Cervantes Saavedra
Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
Gulliver's Travels - Jonathan Swift
Hamlet - William Shakespeare
The Idiot - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
The Iliad - Homer
Love in the Time of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Mahabharata, India (c 500 BC)
Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
The Odyssey - Homer
Nostromo - Joseph Conrad
Oedipus the King - Sophocles
The Old Man and the Sea - Ernest Hemingway
One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Othello - William Shakespeare
The Possessed - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
The Ramayana - Valmiki
Selected Stories - Anton Chekhov
The Sound of the Mountain - Yasunari Kawabata
The Stranger - Albert Camus
The Tale of Genji - Shikibuku Murasaki
Things Fall Apart - Chinua Achebe
The Trial - Franz Kafka
War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
Count of Monte Cristo - Alexander Dumas
Some of these I have possession already (some I borrowed and some I bought). Some of these also, I was able to read already like 100 Years of Solitude, The Stranger and Oedipus the King.
Here’s the link for your reference:
http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2002/may/08/books.booksnews?fb=optOut
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